Where to begin? I was feeling so frustrated with my inner journey, so many years of working on myself, trying on so many different modalities, fruitful for sure, as they all pointed me to my core wounding of loosing my father when I was young, and the beliefs and patterns of programming that came from this. Every time I did a piece of work, it always came down to this same trauma. But what to do with it? Some phases of my life, I would be overcoming this pattern, but as soon as things went wrong, I would slip back into the victim mentality of all that I lacked and that felt out of reach for me.
Honestly, I had pretty much given up, I was tired and disheartened by what was on offer, and I didn’t feel for conventional talk therapy that I have mostly stayed away from in my life. I do believe in our own power to heal and shift, but what would get right to the heart of the matter, to the root of it all, and provide relief and permanent change that could take me forward into the next phase?
I am 52, recently divorced, lost all my security, having to take care of myself all of a sudden, need to build a future from seemingly nothing; the fear was creeping in, consuming me, my work was suffering as a consequence, I was struggling to believe in myself and to stay positive, like there was nothing to grasp onto that was going to carry me through the rough patches. Then I saw Annie’s flyer on a conscious community group, besides the fact that it said free consultation, lol, something about the imagery and frequency there, stopped me in my tracks and made me message her immediately. Turns out I was the perfect fit…..then I realized it was of course not free, but I knew I had to do this, my subconscious was in the driving seat, and so I found the money, and booked. It all happened so quickly, efficiently and smoothly…..no months and months of drawling through a lifetime of stuff, AGAIN.
This time was different. It was intense, I’m not going to lie, but so worth it. The opportunity to recapitulate, the well known and worn pathways of my psyche, but finding the thread of feeling that wove one event to the next, one choice to the next, was revelatory. To see the full spectrum, birds eye view of the patterns that stitched my life together, and how they affected the way I was feeling right now, all these years later. And Annie, oh my word, what can I say about this treasure of a woman…..impeccable, compassionate, humorous, knowledgeable and so insightful, she was able to re-frame my thinking so beautifully, in a way that I could finally see and harvest the gold from my trauma. How she managed to do this is still a mystery to me, but I am forever grateful. The practical tools I have been given, to keep integrating and instilling these new pathways of positivity in me are priceless, and the almost instantaneous change since the journey has been a breath of fresh air. Not to mention the sublime quality of the medicine she uses, it was truly exquisite and held me so beautifully while I navigated some treacherous and rather painful inner territories and memories.
Thank you thank you thank you Annie- as an unconventional woman myself, what I always thought was irresponsible living or flying by the seat of my pants, is actually my superpower, what enables me to live a magical life outside of regulated norms and 9-5’s. Today I breathe out deeply knowing that I can continue to create the life that I desire and cherish, with gratitude, I know that I deserve this, that the pain in me is what makes me rich and deep and able, it gives me the grit to do things differently. I found your program, and the way you conduct yourself to be very professional and at all times I felt heard and seen and held. I loved how you shared some of yourself and your own life challenges, while offering something of such integral value, demonstrating that we can share our gifts and be in service to others, without having to be completely healed and perfect ourselves. You did not position yourself as an expert or have yourself on a pedestal, which allowed me to trust you completely, your humility is a balm in this ego filled world, I got the distinct sense that we journey together and all have something to offer on this path back to wholeness.
I HIGHLY RECOMMEND
Hayley Manson- Cape Town, South Africa (Creative arts facilitator)